Conjuring my Genius

Just had a chit chat with my genius daimon via pendulum, I asked a lot of stuff and forgot some of it. I'm slacking off the rite. I might need to use a scrying mirror after all and practice the Gate of Heka. I feel impatient using the pendulum(read: rosary) to receive answers.


Important questions asked:
* Is the Supernatural Assistant different from the HGA? - Yes(Genius)
 - lool not sure if I fooled myself, since my arm was shakey.
* Will you help me in all my (ad)ventures? - Yes(Genius)
 - Whew this I like.
* Will you provide me the name of my Supernatural Assistant - Yes(Genius)
- The pendulum was swinging in circles though but it sort of swung Yes to me.

Gotta think positive!

5th and 6th Conjuration of the Natal Daimon

5th - At noon, I performed the rite so-so... my brother was around and taunting me while I performed the rite.

6th - Done just now, rushed through it but meditated beforehand during bath-time. Visualized Hexagram in the heart and third eye simultaneously.  In the contemplation phase of the rite, I felt spaced out and I felt my third being conferred with some sort of force. I felt being zoomed in. I had to break away from the trance, my sister is looking at me suspiciously. It was windy when giving the charge to the daimon.

Did not use pendulum on both evocations.

Fourth Conjuration of Natal Daimon and Venusian Sigil

Okay I was suppose to do the fourth one tomorrow, but no, I just had to a few minutes ago. I used a rosary as a pendulum for divination, meh seems to not work as expected. I should make one pretty soon, the beads are too heavy to allow it to swing properly.

I think I half-assed the rite this time, still rushing through it because I did it in plain sight. After conjuring, I launch the Venus sigil I made last Friday. It immediately had a result after I launched on Friday night on Venus hour. I won't be discussing what happened but I felt that I should have had a better result. Until I am satisfied I'll keep on charging this baby.

Third Natal Daimon Conjuration.

Done just now! I went at it quickly, I've performed the rite three times, starting with yesterday, and some people are around so I did it discreetly.

Noticeable effects: during the conjuration part, right about the first time I repeated the conjuration, I feel elated. And it sort of increased after a second and third time. On 40 times repeating my Natal Daimon's name, an even a nicer feeling of elation, what the heck am I stoned? lol I used a different name from my daimon... still basically the same thing though.

Comments:
I didn't use a pendulum to confirm a presence, my brother's behind me. = \
Time for an hour of the Sun, Day of the Sun tomorrow!

Haw haw haw haw

The Natal Daimon

Writing from yesterday at 5:30 something pm: 

Okay I've been discussing with someone on the net about the Genius Daimon and I've been wanting to get it, my SA and some other stuff. And to cut the long story short, the good man sent me a modified version of RO's Genius Daimon Names. We both did the rite quickly, regardless of astrological timing and both confirmed using divination that it worked pretty well than the standard rite from the ebook. It's cool that the modified version consisted of energy work and no tools, yay! This way I can do it anytime and anywhere providing I memorize it. Learned some new stuff while we were discussing too.

And as promised I will perform the rite daily and practice the daily regimen of: offerrings, meditation, divination (either pendulum or geomancy).

Update: I did the rite again on a Sun hour before sleeping last night. Annd I actually took note of the planetary hour from the first performance, it was Sun hour. Coincidences yaay! Next I received a dream that I don't think (considering the fact I sleep late) was significant, it was something about a person owing me something, in a place that sort of resembled my grandma's neighborhood. I did notice a white theme to the dream, not too white like holy white but there's some white stuff I notice. It's not a wet dream. Meh it's not important I think.

This hour of Venus and Day of Venus

This hour of Venus and Day of Venus, I pray you hear my will. Amen.

*recites Orphic Hymn to Venus*

Orphic Hymn to Venus

HEAV'NLY, illustrious, laughter-loving queen, 

Sea-born, night-loving, of an awful mien; 

Crafty, from whom necessity first came, 

Producing, nightly, all-connecting dame: 

Tis thine the world with harmony to join, 

For all things spring from thee, O pow'r divine. 

The triple Fates are rul'd by thy decree, 

And all productions yield alike to thee: 

Whate'er the heav'ns, encircling all contain, 

Earth fruit-producing, and the stormy main, 

Thy sway confesses, and obeys thy nod, 

Awful attendant of the brumal God: 

Goddess of marriage, charming to the sight, 

Mother of Loves, whom banquetings delight; 

Source of persuasion, secret, fav'ring queen, 

Illustrious born, apparent and unseen: 

Spousal, lupercal, and to men inclin'd, 

Prolific, most-desir'd, life-giving., kind: 

Great sceptre-bearer of the Gods, 'tis thine, 

Mortals in necessary bands to join; 

And ev'ry tribe of savage monsters dire 

In magic chains to bind, thro' mad desire. 

Come, Cyprus-born, and to my pray'r incline, 

Whether exalted in the heav'ns you shine, 

Or pleas'd in Syria's temple to preside, 

Or o'er th' Egyptian plains thy car to guide, 

Fashion'd of gold; and near its sacred flood, 

Fertile and fam'd to fix thy blest abode; 

Or if rejoicing in the azure shores, 

Near where the sea with foaming billows roars, 

The circling choirs of mortals, thy delight, 

Or beauteous nymphs, with eyes cerulean bright, 

Pleas'd by the dusty banks renown'd of old, 

To drive thy rapid, two-yok'd car of gold; 

Or if in Cyprus with thy mother fair, 

Where married females praise thee ev'ry year, 

And beauteous virgins in the chorus join, 

Adonis pure to sing and thee divine; 

Come, all-attractive to my pray'r inclin'd, 

For thee, I call, with holy, reverent mind. 

I am under fire...

I got cursed. Someone is throwing something at me and using it to HIS advantage. It's awful I know that sometimes people unintentionally can cast spells on other people even if they don't practice magic in the first place.

Time to ask for help from God. Gots me some plenty of praying to do

I am entitled to magic

Well it's been weeks since my last blog post, I am really busy with a project at school and a possible graduation. Heavens forbid I do not graduate as it will make things complicated.

But in the mean time all the magic that I can ever do is perhaps post sigils on this blog. I know, I will be spamming my blog with all the sigils I ever need. As this is the only form of magic that works when others seem to require a lot of stuff and training, all one needs is a piece of paper and a pen... but in this case, you have all that you need with a computer and the Internet.

I have much to discuss about myself in the future. Views on life, the direction I will be taking and why I am doing magic... I want to effect change in the world. And myself of course. You can help by reaching a state of gnosis and viewing the following sigil for me :) and many more sigils I will be producing. lol



Also I still don't get it how other chaos mages can reuse their sigils, seems nifty and supports my laziness rather than creating an SOI over and over again... AND! also as far as I know, posting sigils in the internet makes them magically charged each time someone views them but how come none of my sigils seem to produce the expected result. Since they have become talismans of some sort on a blog don't they get refreshed???

New sigil post.

This time it's a curse and for a good reason.

Geomancy rocks

Thanks to TheUnlikelyMage, I'm now in hot pursuit in my geomancy studies. :D It rocks, it's simple, you only need to know the 16 figures as an alphabet, the twelve houses in astrology too and other techniques -- translation, mutation, progression, the four cardines, etc. Awesome, awesome, awesome!!

I also like the fact that the 16 figures represent 16 elemental spirits, so that means they are much easier to contact. Sublunary spirits. Very neat :)

Er, wait I haven't had decent sleep in awhile. I should go get my ZzzZzz's... Ciao~

Sick

The hardest part with being sick is not being able to do any magic. I'm too weak to even meditate for a good five minutes. I wish I could pore breathe but... Cough, wheeze, cough, wheeze, cough... asthma attacks like it's New Year's Eve.

Still I'm happy to be alive.

A geomancy post

I did a quick geomancy reading for myself and the girl I like. I warned her about mingling with certain people but she just, doesn't, listen to me!!

Here's the basic shield reading:

and here's the square chart version:

Sigh I already gave her some hints that "they" can be potentially harmful for her... she just really... doesn't listen. /facepalm. Now I worry about our friendship, "are we still friends"? I dunno. I'm still very upset that she takes me for granted most of the time. I'm torn between being there for her, for our friendship, or avoiding her so that I can focus on my occult stuff because she takes me for granted and cares about herself more than me. Sigh... I feel horrible.

What I've been up to

Meditation. I meditated for hours, a total of four hours; I didn't go straight four hours though, my back would hurt.  It makes me high, and I'm addicted to it. I'm pretty stressed out daily because of a lot of factors - family being one example. If I can't have a least 30 minutes of meditation I think my day is incomplete and I feel verrry shitty.

On a sidenote: I've tried the universal centering meditation, breathes, and gazes from The Sorcerers' Secrets: Strategies in Practical Magick. I feel a cool humming with my left fist when I'm cupping it against my heart, I'm not sure if I'm doing it right though. Does one apply five pounds of force on the fist or on the chest? If on the chest, it hurts. Otherwise with my fist, I feel centered and relaxed. I also like the gazes in the book, but in my opinion there's too much explanation that it's better to observe one's practice and compare them with the book; one can absolutely expect too much and receive something else. Observe's the word. Gaze and observe. The breathes are great and very freshing!

Results of a Relationship Sigil.

Nothing very interesting has happened lately. But I do think that the sigil I posted weeks ago has yield a result. My intention was to get me in touch with a certain Ms. A. It was a relationship sigil, and if one notices the green I wanted Venus to bless my desire. Maybe I should have added more stuff such as a kamea, seals of the intelligence and spirit and archangel of Venus. Next time.


The sigil didn't get me in touch with Ms. A. Nope, but interestingly I met someone who is a bit like Ms. A. Although Ms. A and I aren't on the same social standing in life, the other lovely miss whom I shall call Ms. B is. Ms. A and I are friends, a bit close and I thought it was the perfect opportunity to begin a relationship between me and her. Nope, Ms. A has a boyfriend right now... maybe I should forget about Ms. A and focus my efforts on Ms. B...

Oh yeah wait. Ms. B has a boyfriend too. But, I think I have some chances with Ms. B. I need to sort my head with my heart more. And study some more divination. I need to train more also, but the school requirements are first priority. Evocation stuff is snuck somewhere safe.

Losing weight.

I just lost three kilos by jogging and lifting 6 lbs. Beer belly gets in the way during meditation. 10 more kilos to strip off. Hopefully I can do the Inner Smile Meditation without lower back discomfort by next week. I banish thee fat and white rice!

Trial conjuration of Natal Daimon.

Out on a whim, I decided to perform an evocation of my natal daimon without a scrying mirror, a fire wand and an incense burner last night. No presence though. Still I felt nice about doing it, and unlike other beginners in the occult I'm not the type to expect a visible manifestation instantly. I liked what I did though; I enjoyed doing the ritual. It felt holy, and well pretty cute imo.

In place of a fire wand, I inscribed the symbols from the wand used in Trithemius's Art of Drawing Spirits Into Crystals in a candle. In place of an incense burner I thought of using a candle to burn frankincense, but bad idea, it melts the frankincense and burns the candle quick, and no smoke of incense too. With a scrying medium, I just decided to skip it.

Next few tries, I'll complete all the tools necessary. I should consider borrowing a soldering gun for wood burning. I need to find wood discs. *Off to scour the city... and the neighbor's backyard.

The weapons, table and other talismans.

I'm now collecting materials for my natal daimon's conjuration. Good thing there's plenty of stuff here I can pick up. Busy time ahoy!

Burning frankincense, cinnamon and ginger

In the lavatory, I burned a tiny crack of frankincense for the first time and the smell was pretty sharp! While my grandmother was around, but my uncle, sister and mother weren't, she noticed the smell and said: "The air smells of someone recently dead." lol

I carefully put cinnamon next. Air smelled sweeter. "Is there someone dead, John?", granny spooked. And then ginger. All three scents seemed to combine, and I liked it. I felt high actually. It was sweet, high and gingery. Very solar I think.

So lesson learned: when burning incense during ritual, be sure to have Glade Air freshener nearby. There must be no traces of incense. Seal the door's edges before ritual to make sure. 10 grams of frankincense is so powerful. Ughh.

Finally moved into a new home.

The fight starts now, I need to survey the area to perform rituals. Smoke test, stain test, execution, prevent myself from getting caught ... test.

I will succeed!

Philippine Independence Day

It's Philippine Independence Day but, I don't feel special about it. It's a hot Sunday and the temperature is not getting cooler. And, it's very noisy.

So I browsed some channels on tv and I see crowds partying because of what today represents. I really think people are mislead about the Independence Day celebration, since I don't remember when  the Philippines has ever been free from its problems? I know Independence day is celebrated because some disgruntled slaves decided on a revolution against their Spanish owners, but they didn't win their freedom. The entire Philippine archipelago was sold to the Americans in a transaction during some war Spain couldn't win against. So I don't think there is an Independence Day in the first place.

If today were a real Independence Day, I believe people would be celebrating about the culture and genius of our ancestors. Society during Pre-colonial times was an animist society. There were chieftains, workers, and  slaves who believed in the spirit world. I believe our animist centered society would mature and still retain belief in spirits. And it would be a better society than today. We were meant to be agriculture-based not industrial. And if I were to give it a name for my country I'd call it Maharlika, the illustrious class of the wealthy and powerful.

If I truly felt there is an Independence Day I wouldn't be writing in English. I wouldn't write Filipino because I know it's Tagalog and I'm Bisaya. I don't think Tagalog is rich with meaning, syntax and semantics. Usually when ones composes a sentence in Tagalog, one can't avoid using a word that is not Tagalog. It throws the whole thought off and it's actually hard to transliterate in English. Meaning and humor gets lost. It sucks. Same thing with Bisaya. So I dare not think of jumbling different words from different languages into one Tagalog sentence, or a Bisayan one. It's bizarre and smarts in the ears.

I can only dream of a real Independence Day that isn't really Filipino. Maharlika. Yeah I know it's a Tagalog word but as far as I recall the Tagalogs were descendants from early Bisayans who moved north to Luzon. But for a nationalistic reason, Maharlika represents everybody.

Pop! goes a sigil.

I charge thee creature of desire, fulfill thy promise unto me. I send thee into the depths of the unconscious minds of men and women. Amen, amen.

On the Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram

So, I've been using the Lesser Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram nonstop. I prefer it over the LBRP. I feel different using the LIRP than the LBRP. With the LBRP it seems to protect me from hostile, obsessive projections/forces for three hours at best but, the LIRP makes me tougher, it seems or so I think. I can go on a day noticing that some of the siblings aren't too angsty. The LBRP banishes some of the gunk but they keep venting huge amounts of angst. It's too much for me!

So usually when someone's mad or just really feeling afoul, I'd have to imagine a banishing. However I use the LIRP instead.

Both give me weird dreams though, and I hesitate to write all of them. But I think I can share one: I recall telling a female friend that I dreamt about her cousin going to Manila. Coincidentally, she told me they were both going to Manila around sometime in June for work-related reasons. I hope she doesn't move too far away from me nor find someone there.

As I am not yet certain how elemental energies feel, I shall patiently perform the LRP till I do feel what these are. And I must manipulate them too. I think I should read up on Bardon and Rawn Clark.

I will take back my love

And to grace this blog I would like to introduce to you, Hokuto no Ken. You wa Shock!!

I am John.

Hi, my name is John. I'm learning magic. I don't care what style of magic so long as it's magic. I would like to learn card tricks, bending spoons, bending my neck, reality bending tricks. Just anything that can change things -minds, places, habits, situations. Just name it.

I'm usually a sloth but I work hard. Oh yes, I do work very hard for my goals.

Something random: ~Life can be an enjoyable hell or a boring heaven.