Digital Cursing

At the moment, I'm so mad and I feel like throwing all the hurt and frustration at someone who not only disappointments me but is also antagonistic to me. Never mind that I've explained every damn thing about so and so and that I have done so and so because I'm a kind person so and so. Blah blah blah.

Now this is one area of magic that I have not dared to do because I felt like I'm all butterflies and flowers most of the time and I really am generosity to a person, but my patience is running very thin and I'm only human, I need to protect my own interests and I need to assert that I am boss. I need to assert reality as well.

It should be up in a few days. I hope this person gets what is deserved.

P.S. I should be editing my blogger. I will be putting down some stuff that I feel are unnecessary.

Link to: Tech of Choice Kudos to Mr. Jack Faust for this convenience.

Today the Lord hath made me

On this day, the Lord, out of impulse, decided to create me.

HEPABY! :)

Long time no post but I'm here to spread some mischief

ELOTAH TAYEL.

ELUVAM OTENET ALGES TALESE ILES

I haven't posted in a long time. So here's something a sigil for your enjoyment. Hear, hear this is happiness you have here! :)

Stolen from: 

http://beyondchaosmagick.wordpress.com/2013/01/30/dont-worry-be-happy/

http://thehollowones.wordpress.com/2013/01/30/spreading-happiness-in-the-world/

P.S. I'm gonna write something about my life from since the time I went blogging hiatus. But Ciao for nao.

P.S.S. When angels strike, they strike quickly.

Keep gazing at this

Been awhile since I posted something but ... here's something.

Sigh. Getting Laid...

Well, I'm suppose to be happy. I get to work in a government agency. The pay is good, but, I'll lose my social life because work eats up all the time I have and there seems to be no distinction between private life and professional life. If someone calls me up it's because there's an emergency that only I can be counted on to do. Or so she tells me. I'm not sure if I'll be a permanent employee but I feel grateful for the opportunity.

But there's a much heavier sigh I'm letting out. I'm sad that I'm letting go of someone. She's smart, sweet, and sexy and to be honest I was looking forward to moving into a higher level. Nah, no can do for me - she thinks of me as a friend and I'm still a loner, a misfit and I need plenty of confidence upgrades for myself. These 3 months were great, it was nice to know you. Though honestly, before we part ways I wish I could have spent the night at a motel with you.

Well anyway, getting laid. I strongly feel that if ever I won't get laid, I won't forgive myself when I die. Sigh. Okay time to add a new priority for myself. Get laid before the year ends. I'm going for 10s. Time for Mystery, Style and Pook.

Sex!

It's about time... Chod.

Well it's about time, after scouring the web for ways to practice Chod, I will be receiving my first lung from Vajrayana, and I'm so happy. AT LAST! AT FINALLY LAST!

Wish me luck.

Om~
John

Update to the list I made earlier this year

Update to a previous blog:

1.) Initiation into Hermetics - Been reading this on and off and er, I can't make room for this except meditation only. Instead of going through the whole process of IIH, I should use techniques that more or less tie into IIH's theory of magic but I shouldn't swear by it.

2.) Landing a Job - This is going very well. I need a few more kinks. Everything was very easy! Thanks to the spirits who accepted my offerings. Thank you!

3.) Meditation - <3 thanks to this I'm much more stable and not at the mercy of my emotions nor from other's emotions. I've also experienced something weird, I felt my consciousness expand beyond my body, everything was pure light. Nice! I couldn't repeat the experience though.

4.) Offerings - A staple to my practice :D I haven't developed myself to the point that I can commune, speak and see spirits but to my knowledge I think I have made plenty of good friends :D

5.) Theories - I dropped theorizing and pretending to be able to compare and contrast systems. I'll use whatever works.

6.) A partner in magic - dropped. The person copped out. He was pretty wimpy and very shitty. Good riddance anyway.

7.) Reading - Tibetan Buddhism mostly. Google is a friend.

8.) Geomancy - Rarely doing divinations with geomancy. I rarely do divinations these days. I trust the universe with whatever it sends me.